One Perfection ♛

UAN

Niall: It hurts me to think that you’ve ever cried

TMH

Niall: You’re so pretty when you cry

This is just such a fucking unexpected beautiful family I just have to cry on random times because this fucking life has taken over my normal life and now I’m a zombie addicted to Tumblr and Internet who can only speak in directionerlanguage and my parents look at me like I’m not their child and that’s actually true because I have a family who I actually don’t really know but actually do know and it makes me die more times than healthy

He looked at me. I hated it when someone watched me when I was eating. “Stop looking at me Niall.”
He laughed his adorable laugh. “I love watching you eat. You eat so slowly, I could never do that. But you have to finish it, we have to go !”. You were a bit surprised. You knew he was going to do something with you because he was finally back from the tour, but he was very early. You finished your food and went to your bedroom to put some clothes on. Then you heard your favorite song coming from your mobile. You grabbed the thing from your desk and read « Incoming call - Zayn ». You sighed. When you pressed the red button, you heard Niall shout your name. “(y/n), are you ready ?” “Yeah, I’m coming love”. When you were done with your clothes you heard you phone again. It was a text from Zayn.
[ Hey sexy, you wanna do something today ? :) x ] You saw Niall sitting on the couch, waiting for you. You thought this was over..

- 3 months ago -
You were eating icecream and sat sadly on the couch watching your favorite movie again. The boys had a break from the tour, but Niall went visiting his parents. You understood his decision, but couldn’t let it go. Like, you could make it work, right ? When you were sulking like this you heard the doorbell ring. You stood up as fast as you could and flew to the door. But when you pulled your door open, you didn’t saw any blonde hair or blue eyes. It was.. Zayn ? “Surprise !” He yelled a bit nervous while you were standing there. Then you realised that he DID make time to come visit you, and ofcourse, he WAS a very good friend. “Zayn !” You shouted a bit late, causing him to smile heavily. You threw yourself around him and hugged him thight. Then he asked you if he could come in, still smiling as if he couldn’t stop. You felt warm inside, because you could make him this happy. Or was it an other feeling ? You let him in and you asked him if he wanted something to drink. He nodded and you walked towards your kitchen. When you were pouring his drink into a glass, you felt two warm hands around your waist. It was Zayn, turning you towards him with his hands. When you turned around, you were getting nervous because he was standing so close. He moved his head closer to you and whispered “I love you” before he kissed you deeply. You felt warm again. You tried pushing him away. “I… Niall…” You tried telling him this was wrong, but he was so strong. And so beautiful. He kissed you again, and again, he kissed you untill he got you. You kissed him back. That was the sign for him to pull you to your bedroom. You both jumped on the bed, throwing pieces clothing through the air. The only thing you wanted right now, was love. And Zayn could give you that.
You woke up the next morning, seeing all your clothes on the ground and a note on the pillow next to you.
[ Last night was amazing. I’ll call you. xx -Zayn ]
You began breathing heavily and fell back into your bed. After a few seconds you changed your decision and ran to the shower. You didn’t care you were running around in your house naked, you just felt dirty. Once in the bathroom, you took a long shower. The guilt began creeping around you when you realised you cheated on Niall. With Zayn. You started hoping he wouldn’t tell him.

- now -
You walked next to Niall on the beach. It was perfect weather, you had the perfect boyfriend but your feelings weren’t perfect. The suddenly, Niall covered your eyes. He said you had to trust him and started walking with you. It seemed ages. Then, he stopped. He hugged you thight, telling you how much he loved you. He pulled his soft hands away, making you open your eyes. First, you looked at the sea. “It’s beautiful Niall. I really don’t know what to say..” He laughed. “This is what I love about you. Look at the ground, love”. You immediately looked down and saw some beautiful stones. You were standing on one so you moved away. When you walked away you could see more and more stones. Next to you was Niall blushing heavily. He was nervous, you could see that for sure. When you stopped and looked at the stones again you realised the question in the sand. Your eyes got big and you looked again, but the stones didn’t change.
{ WILL YOU MARRY ME ? }

You stared at te stones for ages. The silence was killing Niall. Suddenly, tears began streaming down your face. You didn’t make any sound and cried. Niall ran as fast as he could towards you. “(y/n), don’t you want to marry me ? Is it not romantic enough ? I know I’m not the most romantic person ever, but I tried my best for you ! What is it ? Please tell me what’s wrong ? Am I not good enough for you ?” Niall shouted, with just one breath.
“No, that’s not it.. I.. I..-” “What is it then ? Did I do something wrong ?” You shaked your head. “No..” He looked at you, waiting for you to explain this further. You turned your head away from him, you couldn’t look him in the eyes when you said it. “I cheated on you.”
He said nothing. Just… Silence. You waited for what would come but nothing happened. You looked up, searching for the short boy you loved so much. You found him sitting in the sand, watching the waves come closer and closer. “Who ?” he whispered, without moving.”It doesn’t matter, it meant nothing ! I onl-” “WHO ?” You looked down again. You didn’t know how to stand or what to do. “Zayn..” He quickly turned his head to you. “Did you say.. ZAYN ?” You nodded softly. “I KNEW HE WANTED YOU. THE WAY HE WATCHED YOU. AND I THOUGHT YOU WOULD NEVER.. Never..” His anger turned into sadness and he threw his head in his hands and started crying. His body was shaking from the tears he was losing. He cried, and cried, and you were standing there. Watching the person you loved crying, crying because of you. It took ages before there came words out your mouth again. “I felt alone ! You were visiting your parents and I didn’t saw you for months ! I felt so terrible alone.. And then Zayn came. He made me feel loved. Wanted. Before I knew it, it happened.. I tried pushing him away, I really did Niall.. I just.. Felt alone.. Please, Niall, I know it was wrong. Just.. Give me another chance.. I promise you I won’t let you down, I promise !” He already stopped crying a few minutes ago when you were talking. “(y/n).. You know I can’t marry you if you keep cheating on me when I’m not at home.. This won’t be my last tour, how will I ever leave you now, knowing you wouldn’t cheat on me ? Tell me, how ?” Your tears were forming rivers on your cheeks now. “This was the first and last time Niall, I will never cheat on you again, I’m just, so sorry, I really want to marry you, I will never cheat on you again.. You can leave me if I do, but I won’t, please Niall, please ?!” after moments of silence, Niall finally stood up. He grabbed the rose petals out his pockets and threw it on the ground. Then, he started walking. Walking away from your shaking body. “Niall..” You whispered, watching your man forming a dot, far away from you.

You ran through your house, breaking everything that was in the way. You fell on your bed, screaming and crying. You grabbed your phone and dialed his number. 46 times. He answered none. You walked to your bathroom, trying to find all the medication you could find. You shaked a bottle, checking if there was something inside. There wasn’t, so you threw the bottle on the ground. Your thoughts were somewhere far away now, you didn’t knew what you were doing. When you walked towards the mirror, you stepped on the empty bottle that was laying there. Your foot slipped over the round, empty bottle and you fell. The mirror was getting closer. You heard a scream.. Darkness.

You opened your eyes. You felt warmth. A body, pressed against yours. You were lying on your bed. You felt dizzy and noticed something blink. Things were getting normal, and you saw it was your hand. It was a beautiful, shiny diamond on a ring. It was fitted perfect around your finger. “(y/n), are you awake ?” You knew that voice ! You quickly turned your head. “NIALL !”
“Shh, don’t talk. I was really worried about you, (y/n). When you stopped calling after 46 times, I was afraid you would do something stupid. Your didn’t close your door, so I could walk right into your house. Then I found you..”
“But.. What about Zay-” He sighed. “Let’s.. Not talk about it. Just, do it never again.. I love you…” He turned his head and started looking in your eyes. While he took your hand with the amazing ring around your finger, he continued. “That’s what counts”.